ARE YOU PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE BECOMING?

Yes YOU, with the white face and the heart of a tyrant.; YOU who claim Jesus Christ- a dark-skinned Jewish Middle Easterner- as you Savior, your inspiration;  YOU who have convinced yourself that your white skin proclaims your purity and superiority; YOU who believe your loving God, Creator of all humanity, has chosen YOU to oversee His creation; YOU whose warped pride and greed have allowed you  to believe you are better than all the OTHERS your God created;  YOU who choose to twist the intentions of your own God and Savior out of fear of losing your imagined superior status;  YOU who refuse to take responsibility for your own failings and betrayals- in fact, your own LIFE- and so must find a scapegoat; yes YOU, who hide behind your mask of hatred because you  know deep in your heart that you cannot face your fear of the vulnerability inherent in LOVE! 

ARE YOU PROUD OF YOURSELF?

Dedicated to:  All the souls lost as a result of the latest murderous hate crimes which took place in El Paso, Texas and Dayton, Ohio these last two days. While your souls are now at peace, the souls of all those who remain will grieve while cherishing the life you lived.

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FROM DESPAIR TO JOY

Oh those morning hours,
Those dark hours
Before the sun starts shining;
Oh those lonely hours!
The world looks gray and
You feel as though you’re dying.

It’s 3 AM, a dreamless hour,
You sit and wonder why
When only dreams are left
In your whole world
They too should be denied.

Oh those morning hours,
Those dark hours
Before the sun starts shining;
Oh those lonely hours!
The world looks gray and
You feel as though you’re dying.

The coffee’s cold, your mind is numb.
You think you can’t endure
The emptiness
Of another day
When nothingness is assured.

Oh those morning hours,
Those dark hours
Before the sun starts shining;
Oh those lonely hours!
The world looks gray and
You feel as though you’re dying . . .

[Poem written 11/21/1978 by SEV]

Despair. The anti-joy, the lure of darkness when sorrow and pain demand too much of you.  Despair. Relinquishing the light your being craves. Despair.  Unconsciously ignoring the brightness of your soul. Despair: its power over you lies in your control.

I suggest to you that joy is indelibly written into the essence of humanity. Joy is not an elusive state of mind, nor is it mere emotion.  I believe joy is actually the state of inner peace.  It is the serenity derived from recognizing the soul and the self are one, belonging in turn to something greater than both.  Joy is the realization that you were born with everything you need to create a life worthy of your efforts.  Joy need not be sought, nor is it a goal which you must achieve.  Joy simply awaits your acceptance.

“Dark nights of the soul” are temporary. The sun always rises. Joy is within you, ready to be claimed.

SOUL’S BREATH: Let’s Remember

When the world seems to frown our way; when divisiveness surrounds our lives; when chaos appears to be our norm . . .   then it’s time to take a deep breath and remember who we are.  So I offer a reminder to my readers- and to myself- of our cherished inner being.  I offer this reminder of why I started writing these essays: to exemplify our humanity as ONE people and to urge  everyone to understand themselves so they can accept themselves and others, knowing we all share the same soul-beauty and life challenges.

 

Soul’s Breath

Beneath the veils of public faces,
Under the layers of cloth and flesh,
Between the beats of pulsing hearts
Breathe the souls of all mankind.

Though infinite and eternal,
Creator and all created,
Soul’s Breath is no more than the wind
Blowing softly across the earth.

But embodied within our hearts,
Soul’s Breath becomes a whisper:
Given voice to honor our nature,
Precious voice to cherish life.

Let’s speak of love, of joy and wonder,
The abundance of a single breath-
Which is shared by all humanity,
Intermingling Soul’s Breath with each other.

 

Indeed.  Let us speak!

In a world whose history seems to have been defined by the fears, power struggles and intolerances among its human inhabitants, it’s time we created a new kind of history.  We must speak with each other to do so, and we must speak from a different perspective. That perspective can be created by each person choosing to: honor all the things we humans have in common; acknowledge our differences without judgement; celebrate the uniqueness of each individual.

While most of us have heard such admonishments before, I think we forget- or possibly we don’t realize- that such actions do not happen naturally.  They are actions we choose- or not.  They are choices we make with each interaction, either consciously or unconsciously.  I suggest we bring such choices into our consciousness and decide to relate to others from this perspective, so we may help create better relationships among those who share our planet. Let us speak to both cherish our lives and create a life worthy of the perfection within us all.

Humankind has evolved as a thinking, feeling, intelligent species.  We all have a worldview, a belief system, a way of defining our lives within both our immediate and expanded societies.  This view, for the majority of people, includes belief in a Higher Power, a God, existence beyond earthly life, and/or a soul.  Widely varied as these beliefs may be, having such a set of beliefs is a part of human nature.  Therefore, when I refer to honoring all we have in common, I will call this the practice of honoring each other’s souls.

It all begins with speaking, though it can’t go far without listening- paying attention, truly hearing and internalizing thoughtfully what others have to say.  Sharing thoughts and life stories has helped create the bonds we have formed since before written human history.  By expanding our sharing outside our usual communities, we can increase human bonding.  With each such interaction, we get a glimpse of the souls within all participants.

Choosing to honor each other’s souls, deciding to interact with each other from a new perspective and interacting with those outside our usual comfort zone will positively impact all our lives.

Have faith!  Very soon we could become a Human Community which creates a history reflecting the beauty and wonder of our humanity!

 

 

GRADUATION

Today Joseph, my oldest grandson, graduated from high school! I was so proud to watch as this accomplished young man accepted his diploma and celebrated his achievements, joyfully looking forward to the future he will create.   Joseph’s family and friends celebrated this milestone in his life at his side, with pride and hope for his continued happiness.

Joseph’s happiness will enhance our own; that’s the way it is when we love deeply.  Our hopes and dreams are all  bound together- inevitably, intricately, eternally.  We share the responsibility with exuberance and gratitude, knowing our bonds create life’s meaning and worth.  Together, we will realize our most cherished destiny!

CONGRATULATIONS JOSEPH!

May your:
Aspirations= Passions= Determination

So your:
Life= Contentment= JOY!

AN OPEN LETTER TO JOE BIDEN

Dear Mr. Biden.

I believe you would make a great president. However, having watched the news unfold over the last week it is evident you still “don’t get it!”  Unfortunately you are in good company. For you to move beyond the mindset which clouds your excellent qualifications and moral character, you must become a man ahead of his time, more enlightened  than most. I believe you need an “AHA!” moment.  Please allow me to give you a nudge.

Patriarchy has been one of the defining premises for the evolution of civilizations throughout documented history. It has been the cultural norm globally for millennia.  Over thousands of years, philosophers, religious scholars and even scientists have taught us that men are superior to women. These beliefs, taught to generations of  children, have become deeply ingrained in all of us.  They affect how we see our world, how we treat one another and what we consider to be “common sense.”   Challenging such a deeply established construct rarely even enters our minds.

Yet inevitably the real life consequences of living within such a system creep into our consciousness.  That is because patriarchy is nothing more nor less than a very wide-spread and long-lived form of OPPRESSION.  {see The Creation of Patriarchy, 1986 by Gerda Lerner.}  All forms of oppression elevate one group of people to the detriment of another group.  In the case of patriarchy, men as oppressors enjoy the ability to maintain self-esteem, social status, power and wealth by denying the same to those they oppress (women.)  Those oppressed (women) may at first be complicit and compliant.  But eventually they may become angry, manipulative and rebellious.  Over the last 200 years or so we have witnessed how women have first recognized then attempted to change and overcome the inequality they have experienced.  Yet the benefits derived from such challenges remain tenuous, fragile.  In 460 excruciating pages, Susan Faludi described the ” two steps forward, one step back” characterization of these endeavors in her book BACKLASH: the Undeclared War Against American Women.  [Crown Publishers, 1991]

So you see Mr. Biden, recent criticism of your behavior toward women is not merely a comment on your intent nor on your invasion of another’s personal space.  In the former, no one can read your mind; in the latter, we (women) see paternalism if we are being generous, but possibly a declaration of relative status and rights if not.  Informing our reaction (even though we may be unable to articulate it!) is FEAR- fear of losing ground on our path toward freedom from oppression.  While newscasters talk about recent cultural changes which have altered our perceptions, understand that women have found and used their voices in the past only to be silenced by ridicule, indifference and the strong hold patriarchy has on society.  The backlash is already well underway.

How then might you run a successful presidential campaign going forward?  First: There has been much talk about how one must “stand up to Trump.”  In my humble opinion, the best way to do so is to ignore him, NEVER stoop to his tactics, and let your integrity and character speak for themselves.  Second: Step outside the box and consider how women feel living in a culture which considers them to be second-class citizens.  Talk to lots of women and ask about their life challenges and their aspirations.  Read more about some of the brave women who have challenged the status quo.  Third:  Run on a commitment to pass the ERA!!!  Our human rights will be more secure if legislation proclaims them.  Fourth:  Become the visionary our country craves.  Let your words and actions reflect your soul!

Most Sincerely,
Sue Ellen Valk

Read more about patriarchy in my blogs:   Women’s Voices, 1/21/18;  “Be A Man!”, 2/17/18;  Abortion in a Patriarchal Culture, 10/13/18.  Also: Wikipedia offers a good overview of patriarchy.

 

WHITE SUPREMACY: FEAR PERSONIFIED

I AM SO ANGRY!

Having said that, understand THIS: Anger is always based on – and a reaction to – FEAR!  (In case you’d like to argue with the fact, pick up any self-help book or psychiatric text first.)  Back to my point: what is behind my fear and therefore my anger?  Before I answer, consider my brief bio:

  • I am a 72 year old woman.  I cared for both parents during terminal illnesses and held their hands as they died.
  • When I was 24, I left an abusive relationship, becoming the single parent of three preschool children.
  • I was on welfare for a year while I completed nursing school.  After working at the Mayo Clinic for three years, I continued my education to become a Certified Registered Nurse Anesthetist.
  • In 1981, my kids and I were in a mid-air collision 10,500 feet over Ohio.  We were all terrified but survived despite losing 3 feet of the wing on our private aircraft.
  • In 1990, I finished my BA in Cultural Anthropology. For two years I had concurrently worked full time as an anesthetist.
  • In 1992, I was in a hostage situation for several hours. While entrapped, I wondered how I would get through alive. I finally escaped from my knife- armed intruder.
  • I have lived in WI, MN, AL, TX, VA. I have also lived in Cairo, Egypt, Togo (Africa) and American Samoa (South Pacific.)

Having experienced hardship, social change, cultural adaptive challenges and having faced death, I have come to recognize fear and the masks behind which fear conceals itself- namely, anger and hatred.

It seems we humans are afraid of our own fears!  If we admit to being afraid, we must admit to feeling insecure, wrongly concluding we are weak, helpless, impotent.  Nothing could be further from the truth!  Recognizing our fears and insecurities allows us to OWN them.  Only by looking inside and being honest with ourselves can we hope to accurately define our issues, address them and thus create a solution.  Isn’t this form of rational thought better than the practice of rationalization?!!!  For that’s what we choose when we cling tightly to our masks of anger and hatred.  But from whom or what would we be hiding?  Obviously, OURSELVES.

Yet this is the course chosen by white supremacists and xenophobes of all stripes.  It is chosen not out of stupidity but out of willful ignorance. It is chosen because of intellectual laziness: a refusal to examine and challenge one’s own moral and cultural teachings; to think for oneself.

Choosing to mask instead of admit our fears leads to more fear, and a firmer grasp on our mask, so we can hide from our own truth.  Rationalization perpetuates the need for more rationalization.  Scapegoating is the inevitable result.  If we refuse to be introspective, to look inside ourselves and examine our thoughts and feelings, we will be tempted to blame others, life circumstances- or any handy target- for the problems we perceive in our lives.  A false sense of righteousness evolves, and those who choose to mask their fears instead of rationally dealing with them begin to tell themselves that “the ends justify the means,”  Those means often conflict with their own religious and moral beliefs.  But they won’t recognize what they have done.  Rationalization once again comes to the rescue, spiraling their lives down like shit flushed down a toilet bowl.

But the toilet bowl is getting clogged and the shit is flooding back on all of us!  THAT’S WHY I’M AFRAID!  I hope you are too.  And I also hope we can admit our own fears and deal with truth and reality so our lovely home, Planet Earth,  will not become a sewer.

Dedicated to the people of New Zealand who have suffered the tragedy of losing friends and loved ones to an act of hatred directed at Muslims praying in their Mosque.  May you find peace and know your tears are shared by all humanity.  May your lives be enlightened by forgiveness of those who refuse to see.

Please read my blog With A Prayer, published 9/24/2017

ADDENDUM

Frank Meeink, author of “Autobiography of a Former Skinhead”  was just interviewed on CNN (3/16/19 at 08:15).  He responded to questions by Christi Paul saying fear is at the core of hate groups. Ignorance and laziness, he claimed, were part of the equation, along with a desire to prove  one’s masculinity.   He further said he left his group after having been befriended by men of different races and religions.  We must counter hate groups by addressing their ignorance, he believes; hate against them only empowers them.

ABORTION IN A PATRIARCHAL CULTURE

It’s not about abortion.  Let’s not buy into that fairytale any longer.  We’ve heard the litanies of pro-lifers who cherry-pick Biblical passages to convince themselves and others that God proclaims abortion is murder.  Scientists have joined the discussion as they try to define when life actually begins.  It seems everyone has an opinion they  would die- or kill-  for.  Too many ignore the women whose wombs make life possible.  We don’t have to look far to recognize the hypocrisy in the self-righteous arguments or in the actions of those who profess to honor life.  All point to one conclusion: the abortion controversy is a cover story for a much larger cultural conflict.

I am over 70 years old.  As a young girl growing up in Wisconsin during the 1950’s and 1960’s, we girls were not allowed to wear pants.  Oh, we could cover our legs with snow pants while we walked to school.  But they had to be removed when we arrived.  Then we sat in our under-heated class rooms in our slightly longer-than-knee-length skirts for the rest of the day.  Boys teased us about catching a glimpse of our panties (“I see London, I see France, I see Susie’s underpants!”) if we forgot to keep our knees together or when we played during recess.  As we entered puberty, we blushed as we noted a boy looking at our breasts.  Some of the girls with larger breasts wore loose blouses and hunched their shoulders to avoid the stares.  We dealt with these and other insults on a daily basis.  At the same time, we were being taught by our parents and teachers to be “lady-like.”  I have wondered what the boys were being taught…?

As I struggled with a developing body image and the attention it drew, my mother was dealing with her own issues.  After high school Mom spent a year in secretarial school then worked for the Red Cross during World War II.  However after she married, my dad refused to allow her to have a job outside the home.  This continued even after all of us kids were in school.  They argued for years as Mom resented receiving an allowance while Dad controlled expenditures.  Dad eventually ended each argument saying, “If a man can’t support his family he’s not much of a man!”  Even as a young teen, the undertones were clear.  Any of Mom’s pleas for a little bit of independence threatened my dad’s sense of manhood.

When I was 14, I got a job working at our local grocery store.  Although I’d been promised a weekly allowance, I rarely received it.  I was often reminded of the Great Depression and how lucky I was instead.  So I opted for a little of the freedom my mom had been denied.  But then both Mom and Dad complained about how I wasted my money-  like when I went to a salon for a new hairdo or bought my own winter coat.  I learned to rebel quietly.

My high school years (1961-65) were fun-filled, work-filled and socially challenging.  In our school, few girls dated more than one boy at a time.  We “went steady,” although finding a boyfriend was tricky!  We had to be nice enough to catch the eye of a boy we liked while not being too flirtatious.  Our reputations could suffer if we appeared to be too forward or if we seemed to be promising more than we intended.  We heard whispers of “loose” girls, some of whom were later outwardly shamed.  Any girl who got pregnant was expelled from school.  Even our married female teachers had to quit their jobs before a pregnancy became obvious.  This was, after all, the era of the Comstock Laws.

In 1873 Congress passed the Comstock Laws which intended to “suppress trade in, and circulation of, obscene literature and articles of immoral use.”  Among these  were “articles used for contraception or abortion.”  The last of the Comstock Laws was not overturned until 1965.  Then, although the birth control pill was cleared by the FDA for human use in 1960, it was not until 1972 that the Supreme Court legalized the use of birth control methods throughout the country by both married and unmarried couples.

Is this the culture to which we as a nation would wish to return, the culture we envision for our daughters and granddaughters?  Some appear to think it is.  Some people claim to believe legislating restrictions on a woman’s right to choose how she deals with her reproductive and sexual life will protect our children somehow.  Have they so little faith in their own parenting skills that they prefer to use legislation as their solution?   I sincerely doubt that is the case!  No, the desire to legislate is aimed at all  women in an attempt to maintain societal constructs which benefit men while ignoring the human rights of women.  As one of our female senators recently noted, there are no laws in existence which regulate how a man uses his body.  I believe an abundance of fear, denial, self-delusion and lack of introspection inform this kind of thinking.  Many people, both men and women, fear a loss of self-esteem,  of societal privilege, of public image.  Yet too often those fears are not recognized as fear at all.  They  may be  masked by, or perceived as anger or hatred.  They may  become entangled with beliefs and desires.   Problem solving thus becomes heavily flawed.   The solutions reached are therefore also flawed and do not address the actual issues causing pain.

But how did such thinking originate?  We would have to go back to the origin of patriarchy itself to fully understand the evolution of our perceptions:  when early man was in awe of the power women had to produce a child; when he recognized his physical strength could be used to overpower women; when he chose to nurture his own offspring while finding ways to ensure they were, indeed, his own.  Yet while we can suggest an origin theory, it is most important to remember that cultural beliefs and adaptations persist for different reasons over time.  So what is the reasoning now?  I can only offer my own opinion.

For whatever reason, it appears many men are unsure of themselves and feel they cannot succeed on a level playing field.  They seem to waste an enormous amount of time trying to control circumstances outside themselves to achieve a “one-up” in society  Maybe testosterone predisposes men toward perceiving life as a battlefield:  control or be controlled; win or be a loser; kill or be killed.  Yet rationally, most people realize life isn’t confined to black and white outcomes.  We recognize the multiple shades of gray in between. More importantly, we can envision the infinite colors, the options, the possibilities life provides.  The battlefield mindset does us all a disservice.  More specifically, men who view the sexual and reproductive freedom of women as a threat reveal their own personal insecurities.  They imagine an enemy they feel empowered to fight.  But they are shooting themselves in the foot, for the enemy is within them.  They must come to grips with the fact that they do not need the motivation of fighting an enemy to become successful.  Insight, an open mind, and a little bit of courage provide all the motivation needed, while edging them toward a more harmonious approach toward living.